January 22

Day Thirteen – January 22

So, overall this week, I’ve done pretty well.  I have seriously limited my late-night snacking and I’m going to bed at approximately the same time each night.  I haven’t started working out consistently as of yet.  I have also spent the last week learning about my condition.  I discovered that, due to the fibro, I will probably be in more pain when I start working out, but after I consistently work out; the pain may or may not become more manageable.  I feel slightly discouraged about this.  I want to strengthen my joints and muscles but working out may or may not decrease the pain.  This means that I may still end up being on heavy narcotics by the time I am thirty.  This scares me but I don’t want to let it scare me so much that I withdraw from my goal.  It seems like the more I learn about fibro, the more it scares me, and this condition isn’t fatal.  How do people who are diagnosed with cancer, lupus, or any other fatally debilitating condition able to work through the mental roadblocks I am now experiencing?  Is there a personality more likely to succeed, such as the “type-A” versus “type-B”?  How do I, as a public health person, convince someone to make healthy lifestyle changes?  Why am I so worried about helping others make changes, when I have yet to find the drive within myself to change?